March 2009

Story In My Head

by dietingfashions on March 29, 2009

This monologue hit me fast. I had to write it quickly.

Life can change in a blink of an eye. Minor decisions can bring big changes. One word and a whole story can change. And life as we know will never be the same.

I believe things happen for a reason. Just probably not the reason I wanted. That’s probably why life is not fair. It doesn’t take sides.

I never met anyone like her. She was the best thing that happened to me. ::chuckling:: She was also the worst thing that happened to me. She can be sweet and funny. She can be stubborn and muleheaded. I can always see her pure soul shining out of her eyes. I would never forget her laugh, a sound full of pranks and love.

I love her. I never loved anything before. Not like this. She never heard it from my own mouth. But I think she knew how I felt.

I never got a chance to tell her either. That’s what I regret the most. When I found out how I felt, it was too late. Too damn late.

I thought it was too late.

So I stand here today declaring my love for her. Hopefully she’ll know it’s never too late.
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And so the story begins: 3 Months earlier

“What are you doing?”

I slightly turned from my kneeling position to see the brunette an inch away from my ear. A nosy client. Great. “I’m putting together the lens for this camera and also attaching a flash. This area is a little lacking in light. If you want a good shot, I need these to make the picture work.”

“Geez, a little touchy. I meant what are you thinking about? You had a weird crinkle in your forehead and your eyes went a bit wild for a moment. It was not a look of someone thinking about light and whatever other stuff goes into photography.”

“Look if you want this scenery, ….”

“The agency said that you did the shoots for National Geographic for years. And that you just recovered from an injury. Did you hurt yourself on an expedition?”

“… You are…. who told … look can we just get on with this? I have another appointment in 2 hours.”

“No you don’t. I asked Bradford and he said that this is basically your first shoot since the ‘hush hush’ accident.”

Bradford. He is going to die a slow death. And so soon after his wife gave birth. A pity.

“Whatever lady. Let’s just get a move on.”

“Not lady. I have a name. It’s Sunny.”

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What do you think so far?

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Strengthening My Buying Power

by dietingfashions on March 29, 2009

Diane Von Furstenburg Dress

In business school, I was told that by stengthening a company’s buying power, you should be able to reap in better returns. In a way, that’s what I want to do. But in a totally different market.

SHOPPING.

I have an urge to shop. And by strengthening my guts to just buy the stuff I want, I’ll be able to reap in the valuable items I want. On the other hand, that means I have to work my butt off to pay off the credit card. I’m not looking forward to that though.

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Shopping Junkie

by dietingfashions on March 28, 2009

I feel like I’m going through withdrawal of a drug. I’m frenetic, snappy, cranking, and jittery. All the makings of a junkie. But it’s not for drugs. It’s for shopping.

It’s been a while since I shopped. For clothes, jewelry, shoes, or purses. I have been just working, taking care of Megan, and working!

All of a sudden, it hit me – this shopping frenzy – this urge to do some damage to my credit card. And the idea that I might be sinking a whole in my credit card isn’t even phasing me. Something is really wrong with me!

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Parenting Cartoons

by dietingfashions on March 26, 2009

I have been receiving emails from babycenter.com since I became pregnant. I love the info they send to me week by week through my pregnancy. And I especially love it when they didn’t abandon me when I gave birth. Babycenter.com kept me informed as a new parent week by week of my child’s growth. It helped me keep track of Megan’s development and even sometimes helped me resolve issues and even reasserted my parenting skills.
Like any new parent, I do not know half the time what the hell I’m doing.
But the thing I love about babycenter.com is their cartoons. I always am on the lookout for their funny as heck cartoon which is at the bottom of the emails every other week. I found out that the artist is Cathy Thorne of http://everydaypeoplecartoons.com/
One of my favorites. I totally remember how I felt around that time. It was exhausting. I was sleep deprived because I was so big. Walking hurt, actually everything hurt. The aches and pains… don’t get me talking about the labor pains…

And now I have been asking this question a lot lately. She’s been a bad bad little girl and she can’t even talk yet!

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We are not as young as we used to be

by dietingfashions on March 25, 2009

I’m only 27, but on days like this, I feel like I’m 75 or older. My back was achy when I woke up this morning. It wasn’t painful just achy and sore even though I haven’t exercised or lifted anything. Well except my baby but she shouldn’t make me sore. Maybe I slept too much. But then why was I still tired this morning.

Lately, my feet is tingly when I first get up. It’s like my feet fell asleep while I was sleeping, but shouldn’t that make my feet numb immediately? What is going on with my body?

I should probably exercise more. But there is not enough time in the day for me to fit in a workout much less drive to the gym. Yes, the gym is about 10 minutes away but it’s still not close enough for me. I have the treadmill at home but not the weights or the resistance equipment.

I need to cut work short and go exercise more often. I’m starting to feel really stressed. My neck is constantly tense. The muscle there in my neck is sooo knotty.

Yup 75 year old.

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